Thursday, September 8, 2011

Stars

I've written many times about my time in South Asia, and more specifically about watching the stars on the open ocean. This single event holds the essence of the many emotions that the trip as a whole brought, which is why I write about it so much. I guess.




We walked past the fish market dragging our lives along in backpacks and black tubs. There was sweat dripping down my back as we stood beside Dhoores, the lovely cargo boat that was to be our home for the next 27 hours. After two weeks on the island, it didn’t faze us when we gingerly climbed aboard, that stayed sitting in the harbor for a couple hours for no apparent reason. The Islanders live on a different time schedule than the rest of the world. They do things when they want to, and don’t do things when they don’t want to. We had grown accustomed.

11 strangers had become a tight knit family, of which I was the youngest. The Islands brought us together. We worked together in school during the day, we planned together during the evening, we all slept in a three room flat during the night and all shared the desire to have something besides spicy fried noodles or rice for dinner. We were all there to share a little of the love God had given us, with people that had no idea He even cared. We were one family.

As the sun began to set, we put our phase 10 cards and books away. It was going to be a long night on the fiberglass floors of the 3-4 ft. tall open sided slot that was our domain. It wasn’t a large boat, and there were at least 15 people trying to find some space to curl up in, in our little cubby. The boat started, and we watched the little island that had become home, get swallowed up by the expanse of water.

Darkness was coming fast on the open ocean. Finally we were on our way to our new home. I was excited, but nervous to leave the capital and everything we had grown used to. We were in a small country that is a collection of islands in South Asia, and the very reason we were there was illegal, so going another step outside my comfort zone was not a welcome change. I quickly got bored in the cramped space so I decided to go exploring. I walked on the edge of the boat to the front, and then to the back, watched a friend eat some sketchy looking rice and fish offered to him by some of the boat hands, and then was already out of things to do. But then we learned that if we went through the little half doorway, there was another half doorway to the top of the boat.

When I climbed up, the wind and cooler air were a welcome change to the oppressive heat of the Island. The sun was setting and we were alone on the open ocean. Part of the family came up too and we took pictures and chatted with the sound of the engine drowning out anything we didn’t want the people below us to hear. As the sun set it grew cooler and cooler with the darkness, and then we looked up.

A blanket of stars covered the sky. There were so many that they blotted out the dark backdrop behind them. When I looked up, the sheer beauty blew me away. We all lay down and just stared and reveled in the beauty of the Creator. Then the singing began. For two weeks, the closest thing to singing our hearts out to Dad was humming along with our ipods, so we let our voices loose. The waves hitting the bow and the roar of the engine intertwined and gave our hearts courage to raise our songs in praise.

We stayed there for hours. All I could think of were the people below us that saw the very same stars, yet did not see the love, power and hope they represented. The stars were screaming, yet all they could hear was the prayer call five times a day. It was as if they couldn’t see the stars at all, they were blind to the truth they held. Blinded by lies they have been drowning in since birth. Those same lies will drown their children, and their children’s children, until someone finally tells them of the truth behind the beauty.

Monday, April 18, 2011

My Portion Forever

Psalm 73:25-26, Isaiah 40:8

This world will surely pass away
But You remain, You remain
Riches will fade
Names will be forgotten
Bread of life, only You satisfy
I put my hope in You

YOU ARE ALL I NEED
MY PORTION FOREVER
THE STRENGTH OF MY HEART AND MY LIFE
MY SUFFICIENCY
IN YOU I TAKE REFUGE
YOU'RE MY ALL WHEN ALL IS GONE

Whom have I in heaven or earth?
Only You Lord, only You
My flesh and heart may fail
But never my Redeemer
The grass withers, the flowers fall
But Your promises are sure

The best of earth could not compare
To You my Savior You are my treasure
This world is not my home
I will trust in You alone

-Matt Papa, My Portion Forever


This song gives me great encouragement. It reminds me that no matter what happens in life or how out of control it feels, God is in control and He predestined and planned with love every tear for a reason.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I'm so tired of the phrase "I feel"

Tuesday, February 1, 2011


The cool of night on the open water is a welcome change from the sticky island oppression. The darkness beyond is complete, there is no glimmer of civilization in the distance, just us. The rumble of the motor overlaid with the waves on the bow combine, they drown out any noise that I wish to remain within our little family. I look out into the darkness, and feel the ocean breeze wrap around me, and lay down. And there in the heavens, instead of darkness, is a sheet of stars. It’s hard to distinguish one star from another, they overlap and intertwine into a tapestry that no man could ever dream of making. Suddenly that’s all I can see, there is no more boat, no ocean, no friends, no fear. Only the stars and our Creator is left. But the stars do more than shine into the darkness, they are a ray of Truth in a world flooded with lies.